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Tuesday, February 22, 2011

48.) Divorced/ Seperated (Last Post)

finally we broke up at 9th of February 2011 around 4am

aAron:
i dont know whether you will come visit this blog again or not
and dont know whether you still remember the email address and password then login
because i was changed the link
you might think i treat you as a toy and playing the fool with you
and you may not forgive me what i have done
maybe you also think i was changed
some more you will think all the previous conversation i said to you is just fake
i dont know how to say out my feelings to you again
that day i been told you all about that
maybe you will not believe and not wish to listen anymore
but all these are not important now
i just wish you could take care well of yourself
sleep early on the bed and it is not on the sofa
eat well and rest well
take medicine on time if you are sick
seek for doctor immediately if you fall a sick
see the first doctor maybe cant recover
then you have to seek for another doctor
cannot just wait for it to recover itself
dont do something bad that will affect your health when you are unhappy or moody
i know that i have no ability to ask you follow what i have said
and you can choose not to listen
although you are elder than me
but in my eyes you same like a little kid
because whenever i try to tell you
you are just like a kid after listened then forgot what people have said
every time you will answer me say "i know la"
i believe you really know it
but you still did not take care well of yourself
maybe you found out that im nagging too much
but i really hope you are fine there
thats why every time i repeat the same words
i not want to judge you
just worried about your body
you wont believe i keep thinking of you every moment
how you look at me also doesnt matter
the fact is i broke you up
i know shouldnt pulling you again
sorry for im still do that
but i promise
no more
i wont again even i want to
because i know this make you feel so hardship and cant breathe
actually until yesterday i realize that you cannot accept me again
i have bring you a wound and yet it became a scar
when you read this post
maybe you will think im something wrong
because why i say what kind of broke up and what the hell im talking
whatever and etc
you ask me not to say sorry to you again
so im not going to say now
but really thanks for the 1 year plus you be with me
you always support and accompany me
concern me
and i will remember that is our song
everything regarding you will keep in my mind
thank you so much that bring me a lot of happiness
this memory i do appreciate and will not forget
but i hope you can forget me
just try
just treat me passerby in your life and concentrate in your own life
i am not worth that stay in your mind
my temper
my action
my words
all bring you scary memory and hurt you a lot
your family need you more if compared with me
say till here
maybe you also will think i could find my bright future
and maybe you hope i am fine here also
dont worry
i am okay here
but everyone cannot predict what will going happen the next second
maybe i die first
or touch wood you will first
i really dont hope i make your life messy and hurt you again
so please do take care of yourself
lastly
MUMU dear
:'(
:)

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